Feeling a bit used. Feeling a bit crazy.

Lately, Ive been feeling a bit used by certain people. I don't know why I'm writing this, except for the fact i need to let it out. So, any girl that has been used by a guy definitely can relate to this. They say things to make you laugh and make you smile, but maybe they really just want one thing. And we all know what that is.
What do you mean; i like being with you,spending time, hanging out, everything about you. Oh, but i just don't want to be in a relationship with you right now. And on top of that, I'm going to ignore you for the most part at school and act like i wasn't begging you to hang out last weekend. But maybe i should know better, when we hang out, how it's always late night, how your always buzzed off of something, how it's always, "wanna go back to my place" And yeah, I'm not stupid, i REALIZE what is happening. But why do i still like you?
So, as of now, i don't know what I'm going to do with this situation. I know what i have to do, which is tell him he can go fuck himself, because hes wasting my time if he doesn't want something real. But that's definitely not what i want to do. Right now, I'm just happy it's thanksgiving break so that i can get out of Alameda and think these things over.
On another subject, I keep having these out of body experiences. Well not exactly, but i don't know what else to call it. It's really weird. Like I'll be sitting in class and I'll go to touch my hair or face, and it's like i can't feel myself touching it. I can feel a hand touching my hair, but it doesn't feel like my own hand. Or I'll be walking in the hall or somewhere and I'll just get really dizzy or i guess, lost. It will feel like I'm not walking down this hall or street. I'm just walking, but i don't realize it. Most of the time, it doesn't feel like I'm inside my head. Like I'm not even here all the way. I was just stopped typing this and randomly phased out, and i just remembered i was writing this! God, i must sound like a crazy person. That's what people look at me like when i try to explain this, like a crazy person. And now i feel crazy too. My mom thinks I'm depressed or something, but I'm not sure whats happening. But i hope it will make a good story soon. I also feel super tired all of a sudden and now have the chills. I hope these aren't like symptoms of something serious. That wouldn't be fun at all.
I got it! I feel like I'm stuck inside a painting. hmm, that's what it feels like. I think maybe Ive heard that before, but I'm not sure. huh, weird. I guess I'll try to act normal.