So in my last lit letter i left you with the knowledge of Gemma and Tar taking there first hits of heroin. After this everything seems great for them at first, then the third part is where their lives start to go downhill. They trick themselves into thinking they can quit smack at anytime they want, which leads to more using. Eventually there addiction is apparent, only after there wanted for such crimes as robbing stores cash registers and wanted by almost every drug dealer in town for stealing smack. Thats when they try to stop. There all extremely close, lake a family, so when Lily becomes pregnant, they all trying giving it up for the sake of the baby. But the want is way too strong by now. They quit over and over but relapse every time. The cycle repeats until the end, where Gemma quits for good,m because shes pregnant with Tars baby. Tar continues his addiction and so does Lily.
This writer, i think is etremely talented. I love how he writes. This is one of my favorite quotes from the book, because it kinda shows how strong addiction is, and how it effects lives.
"I dont believe in anything anymore. I dont believe in me, i dont believe in my friends. The thing is i have to remember is that im weak and there weak. I cant do it alone. If you have an addictive personality, you have to help from outside yourself. Some force outside you and stronger than you, that you can turn to when you feel weak. I know that i cant trust myself ever again. Loving someone. I thought it was magic. Its not you and its not them. Its not in you, its between you. its bigger and stronger than you are. Thats all i have really now. My personality almost dissapeared completely when iwas on heroin. Im off it but i still dont know who i am. I only know that im weak."
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